Seeking my own death, I had found the perfect place to commit suicide. Here, it is filled with “towering” objects, such as tall trees, skyscrapers, cranes, tow trucks, cable cars, etc... It is where one can pick any place to jump off and die.
On the street, I met a girl that came here to commit suicide too. She is a very charming girl. Oddly enough, her charm stems from her fervent desire to die. Elated, she planned where to jump and how to get to a high enough elevation. She could hardly wait for the moment of death to come. I couldn't understand why such a spirited and good-natured girl who's so “filled-with-life” was so excited about dying. Yet, her charm seemed to eat away at my courage to commit suicide. Jumping from a high elevation was starting to make me feel scared.
Back at the hotel, I enrolled in a course. The class’ depressing atmosphere made me feel that I was back in school. During the agonizingly long duration of the class, I only scribbled the words “please don’t die” on a piece of scrap paper with great force and was hoping the class to be over soon so that I could hand this note to that girl. Coincidentally, she happened to stay in the same hotel. Yet, the class dragged on for many more hours. I could no longer sit still, so I rushed out the classroom. Before I stormed out, I did not forget to scold the lecturer.
While running towards the girl’s room, I noticed from far away that many people were entering and exiting her room. This made me worry. Sure enough, when I entered the room, the girl’s friend told me that she had jumped and that it was too late.
“How do you know? Maybe she has not departed!”
“No, I just came back from the mortuary to confirm her death.”
Images of the girl’s dead body scattered all over the place began to fill my mind. I felt a great sense of despair. Nothing was important anymore. Even the thoughts of committing suicide and its associated fears became meaningless. Although my desire to die did not fade, I was no longer inspired to do so. Just that, everything seemed so meaningless.
Holding the scrap of paper in my fist, I aimlessly walked out onto the street and aimlessly boarded a bus. Suddenly, that same girl boarded the bus too. She was radiant, surrounded with a very dim aura. She was even more beautiful than before. Yet, I knew she no longer belonged to this world, and that she was here to say goodbye.
“One day, we will meet again.”
I hold her and whisper into her ears to comfort her. In fact, I was trying to console myself.
“I don’t think we will!”
Smiling while speaking, she waved goodbye and jumped lightly off the bus.